Is being smart all that important?

Is being stupid all that bad?

Then the question is, what is stupidity?

Maybe what I'm focusing on now, isn't more on the academic perspective. Maybe what I'm trying to do, is to undo all my past so-called mistakes. Maybe, I'm just trying to learn more stuffs, that arent really that academically inclined. Still, I like my life now.

At least my face aint glued onto papers.

I'm learning the things i want to learn. I'm taking up hip-hop/tennis and nobody's gonna stop me. Cos this is what I do with my life, so if you aint happy abt it cos it's not anywhere close to being academically inclined, then all i can say is TOO BAD. Please dont try to find any trace of regret/apology cos there aint none, and there aint gonna be any. I only have one life, and I'm gonna live it the way I want it. Not like I'm doing drugs or anything, I know my limits. Plus bloody hell, my exams are like over. So maybe, you can screw me if I fail any of 'em. Wait, I dont need to wait for someone to screw me cos of that, I'll save you the trouble and screw myself instead. I like my life right now, thank you very much. Oh wait, I don't even think you even give a fucking damn abt whether im happy or not. You just need me to live up to your idealistic expectations doncha. Well, that aint gonna happen lady. Today's a fucking bad day, I'm sorry I hafta swear. But studies have shown that expletives/profanities release stress. So hell yeah, I'm carrying on with my life, whether I have you by my side or not.

Maybe you should let go.

$%^%^$%^

I GOT GROPED/MOLESTED/WHACKED BY...

a sec one today?!?!?! WTFFFFF. PFFFT.

AND ME BEING ME, GUESS WHAT I DID.

i ran away, shouting for yilin. -deflates

-AHHHHH WHY LIKE THAT?!?! ):

it all happened at my homeground... MY HOMEGROUND LEHS! the netball courts! whatever happened to the "ahh-shes-sec-4-shes-gonna-eat-me-up" mentality of those sec1s! SECONE, SECFOUR. THAT'S SO WRONG. SO SO WRONG. IM SO SAD. MY FIRST HAS BEEN TAKEN AWAY BY A SEC ONE?!?! NOT EVEN A CUTE GUY/GIRL FOR THAT MATTER. WHAT IS WRONG?! I MUST GO REFLECT.

well, those who are interested in my misery can read on... ):

was practising for netball carn with resh during free blocks today. then ong had pe class. so we were roped in to play with sec1s so that they can get graded. so anyway, i was GD and my GA (the pervert!?!?) started talking to me. yah! wah, maybe she has a crush on me. haha, okay ch_wen shuddup. yes, then the game ended. we must have good sportsmanship right? so went to shake hands with opponents. THEN, SHE SHOOK MY HAND AND WHACKED MY ASS. ONE TIGHT SLAP.wah biangzzZzZ, lucky my ass is like, firm. HAHAHA no, that's not the point. i shld have like, stared at her and go "WHAT THE BEEEP DYA THINK YOU'RE DOING?!" but NOOOOO, SMART ME JUST HADTA RUN AWAY IN HORROR. go scurrying to yilin for help.

OKAY, I DECLARE. IM OFFICIALLY USELESS.

SO YOU STOLE MY HEART, AND LEFT ME A RANSOM LETTER

you can cut me, prod me, and rip me apart

and i dont feel the pinch

be gentle with my heart.

your future world-class heart surgeon (okay maybe not :b)

the psychopaths

stab my heart

Today was just pure fun.

Tennis lesson in the morning was good. Adrian's gonna let me try out his raquets. But im already in love with luca's prince raquet. :D haha i like kelly's wilson too. hrms =\ why must rj's tennis be so zai? people like me surely cannot make it one ): then how! shihui and i cannot realise our dream of playing doubles! we're gonna train hard right? to get nice tan, chio legs and um, toned body. HAAHAHA. if i decide on tennis, then i can go for my op, cos tennis doesnt really require that much of left shoulder aight? as compared to netball lah?

okay, i beat my uncle today at tennis! one set only, but good enough! haha, i was so happy that i punched the air, rolled on the court and trotted abt the place. five mins after, my dad mom bros knew i had won :D heh heh, must attract attention what.

anyway piano was surprisingly peaceful. with me actually playing peaceful music (which sounds right) HAHHA. i play piano by instinct if you havent already heard. for those who have not, i suggest you dont even try to ask me to play. you'll regret it x)

tuition was...

rachel's huge aviators. seh right? haha

rachel's thousand dollar watch. limited guess edition. so prettyyy. my hand's worth a thousand bucks wearing it. hahaha x)

waving my million thousand dollar wrist heh heh

tiantian and rachel e

i still think my cap is pretty, cos it's white. anything white is coolio hah

save our souls! WARNING: POISONOUS GAS ALERT

one, two close the doors

three, four shut 'em all
five, six using masking tapes

seven, eight shut up and wait

nine, ten ipp ______ (fill in the blank)
btw, yink's makeshift picnic mat haha

i hereby declare the "Save the Masking Tape" campaign shall take effect as of today

haha, no relevance to what we did today. but, this's gotta be the most ridiculous thing ive ever seen at a mall. walking tiger that goes GRRRRRRR

anna the councillor. haha, tennisbadminton player

haha so, sh & co. did come after all. had our night tennis game! anw, presenting... mariasharapova-wannabe! pro lah pro lah

walaoooo im very tired today. a few more weeks and maybe you'll find me hiding behind the whiteboards sleeping. ZzZzZZzZz, i need. ch_wen is your superhero. without her, resh shiwei and the rest of the world will kena niao-ed by teachers cos they'll be busy zzZZ-ing their lives away during modules.

ms wonderspray saves the day!

who need my holy water come find me before too late. very cheap, 6 dollars per bottle. okay, i see you my friend i give you discount, 3 dollars lah.

ingredients: weak acid mixed with water. dont make me angry, if not i give you "extra" ingredients then you know.

in view of promoting nationalism, i will support singlish. we must be special hor, if not some "smart ass" people from some "airheaded"countries come migrate here and kick us out.

i buay tahan. lessons very boring, i want my zzzz. anyway, show you my favourite toilet

my disneyworld in sch. maybe i bring sleepingbag tmr and sleep there. you can find me in my favourite cubicle. wanna know which one? dont tell you, you guess lor.

today raining even more sian. make me even more sleepy. then cannot play tennis somemore. life sucks lah, kns.

today we had golf for pe
mish, yilin resh juggled golf balls and went crazy
played tennis with karwei after that
stay fit, and you wont get fat

was a poor jew during history
resh ze punjabi sat beside me
squirted water at bowlingball after class
bowling ball aka lion made a big fuss

watched bballers train and went high
p.s ipod nano's damn fine. (karwei's getting one. make me jealous only!)

so shihui's coming over for tennis tomorrow (:
but i dont have a raquet, think i'll hafta borrow ):

gonna take hiphop classes soon
with gloria, shaf and resh that goon.
i hope my mommy will subsidise me
cos this lady aint got no money. ):




dont know why we started talking bout cars on the way home. i want a convertible! not 2, not 3, but a FOUR seater convertible! and silver! haha. resh wants a JEEP. i shall refrain from commenting haha. anyway, back to my convertible... yes, i shall wait for it to drop from the sky (hah i was thinking what if my dream car really drops from the sky........... andd lands right on top of me. so loser, die for a car haha)

ooh, black's sleek baby. low maintenance too (:

i shall stick to my bro's ipod lah. cannot be too greedy. lets see, what else. oh i want laptop too. haha damn, i promise i'll never smash it again. i think i'll wait a gazillion years and maybe, one day i'll find a winning lottery ticket on the road. then...

better yet, marry a rich guy and... yah you know the story hohoho x)

do you think it'll rain money one fine day? i am $_$ today.

i'm never gonna do templates for anyone else again. html codes friggin get on my nerves. ahh f, need. sleep.

i know it's a lil early for christmas now, but these are a few of the things im eyeing. haha, hope that one day someone out there will do some magic and i'll wake up with all these right on my table :D dear santa, ive been a good girl this year -am not lying :b haha alternatively, i could bug mom and dad for all these and maybe someday they'll relent and get me what i want. or maybe they'll throw me outta the house

okay actually i dont really want this. ahh, see howso pretty!

this is like, must get! <3 align="center">

yvonne's cam. just that it's a newer model. 5.1 megapixels only though, but for an amateur photographer like me, good enough!

uncle alex said that trusty camera brands were namely nikon and olympus. but i went to check out canon ixus as well. they've got the newest model... ixus 750. crap, i think dad wont buy it for me, he'll stick to "our camera can still use what............... abit slow only" ):

quite heavy i think? heavier than the olympus one at least haha

im a lazy bugger, lugging camera's too much hassle for me. this camera's heavier than olympus one too!

guess what? this is heavier too! okay okay, fine, i confess. im just trying to psycho myself into getting that olympus one, i guess it isnt really stylish, but it grows on you! hahaha

nano's the babe man! so pretty. but this baby's gotta be no. 3 on the list after birkenstock and camera. cos im still hogging bro's ipod x)

dont know why im looking at all these crappy stuffs, cos it's way beyond my budget. damn, birkenstock really grows on you, but i havent tried on one yet. dont know if it's worth the mooooney not. as for now, note to self: start looking for prom dress. hahaha

lets see, today, i woke up to a really bad start. mom intercom-ed me, cos the neighbours had their tennis coach over to our place for tennis lessons. so mom asked if i wanted to join in. then i was like... dreaming?! i cant even remember what my dream was, all i know was that i was in the midst of getting some juicy info abt someone regarding something. rarh. anyway, i woke up and decided that yours truly shall be lazy no more. so yeah, got my stuff and my extremely old tennis raquet and headed for the courts. not bad, considering i actually could hit the ball across the net. must be pe huh. haha, anyway, was learning howta do half serve. whoppe, it actually was within the boundaries, and pretty accurate. the coach's pretty good, knowing my neighbours (high end socialites) they'd probably get nothing but the best. i saw him rally-ing with aunt genie, wow, his back and fore hand was powerful. if the tennis balls rocketing off his raquet were to hit me, i'll guarantee holes in my body. anyway, my (non-existant) backhand improved too. haha. so much for an hr of lesson. coach adrian said that my racket was the best of its kind 20years ago haha, tells you something abt tennis and i doesnt it? hurhur. so now, im gonna get new raquet. maybe ask adrian what kind of raquets would suit a noob like me best. kelly and luca's raquets were... gooooood. hah they lent me theirs to use anyway. aunt genie said she'll provide me with all the shock absorbing thingums, so rarh, the only downside of the entire thing's... waking up at 7+ every saturday morning. i hope this time round, i persevere, and wont drop class after say, 1 month? haha.

rest of the day went pretty fine (: think im going shopping with mom tmr. yay.

Ever thought of what life would be like, when we lose our senses?

i had a 14hour school day today.
congress and inconvo.
seriously, this module thing is killing me.
beat.
gazillion random thoughs are zipping through my head.
it's time to hit the sack.
night.

question: is it possible for two people of totally conflicting personalities, to be together?

impossibleISnothing.

facts of the day
1) israeli are jews. palestinians are arabs
2) british: torch, americans: flash light, singaporeans: torch light
3) diabetes is the failure of the pancreas, not the kidneys

damn, i think my brains swelled today.

modules suxxorrrRrZzZz!! chinese first block was slack, then was math. then recess and we had more than an hr's break till nxt lesson. so when chem ended at 12 plus, we were free till three?! wth, and we cant go out of school cos of come school policy thing? i pity those who were free from 10 or 11. walk around sch like zombies till 1.30? righttttt. in any case, we were thinking of ways to get past the security guards to get outta sch. actually, we could have just trampled on them... like stampede or sth since almost everyone was congregating at the foyer just waiting for the minute hand to hit six zzzzz.

went out for my tuesday gelare treat (: then had hell of a time, bitching. hohoho. went back to school for medical bio. ahh i l-o-v-e ms neo, but i adore her baby more. everytime i look at her, i'd think of her kid, the one with the mohawk hairstyle. so stylo. after that was hmmm, greek mythology crap. i vaguely remember all the stories i've read, thank goodness i actually liked reading such stuffs when i was young. so i could more or less participate in discussion, somewhat lah. those people there are scary, and stressful i might add =\ they remember like names of the gods/goddesses and aall the story lines etcetcetcetc. and who would know that Narcissus/Echo/Chaos are names of people. hahahahaa. Well, at least i do know Medusa, Zeus and some other random mythical characters. ohboy. so sad ms l ain't teaching us. i like it when she blabbers. haha

yeah, so school ended 6.30 for me today. one day im gonna scan my timetable and show how pathetic sch life is. earliest sch ends for me's like what.. 3.30?! rachel e's timetable for friday's roxxorzzZ. first two hours free blocks, then recess (breakfast ah? lol), then more free blocks.. then assembly then free blocks ALL THE WAY TO WHAT, 5pm? then lesson 5pm-6.30. wth, she live so near sch someomre, can go home and sleep. make me jealous ):

after school, went to paragon to meet mom cos bro was having his studio prac there. anyway we just walked around and tried scouting for prom? wasnt expecting to get anything there, cos prices are pretty crazy. especially when im only gonna wear for a night. like... five thousand moonies for one black gown.

tmr's schedule's pretty slack. math and pe, then slack frm 9am all the way to 1pm. sch end 4.30, so aint that bad. after pe, resh and i decided to workout in the sch's gym hahaha. gonna bring my pillow tmr, so can rent video in the library and watch movie or sth.

man, i saw this scribbled on the table today. nice song! yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

chinese's finally over! paper was mad. crammed so many ci yu and crap, in the end i still dont know howta write some words and do 1 zaoju. walaooooo, so annoying. anw, IM THE HAPPIEST GIRL ALIVE ON EARTH TODAYYYYY.

im a girl
im a girl
im a happy HAPPY h-a-p-p-y happy happy girl! :DDDDD (haha okay you get the idea)

i must thank jing and zay for realising my dream of swimming in 1 yr supply of icemilktea from mos burger. they should really get me to endorse their drink!

went to meridien food court, had lunch and talk damn lot haha. after that zay came along, opened table then we played for awhile

i won like c-r-a-p?! haha 5 games in a row, both zay and jing. zay's da bomb, i won like 2 icemilkteas from jing, 1 YEAR SUPPLY of icemilktea from zay, zay lost his name and i called him mr icemilktea until he won it back, i was spared of paying for the game today cos i won it. im so friggin lucky! EVERY SINGLE TIME. THOSE TWO LOVEBIRDS KEEP POCKETING AND WHITE BALL AT CRUCIAL MOMENTS. anddddddd, mr zay kept pocketing both balls together?

i know how exasperating it is. haha -pats. 4 times in a row. anyone would have gotten a phobia of finishing the game, knowing that you have 99.9999999% chance of pocketing white ball SOMEHOW. seriously, the white ball KEEPS GOING IN. that's how i got to earn all the prizes. lady luck's seriously pampering me today.

awww man! i dont want this day to end. then again, both of em would have killed me. hahaha (:

so, to summarize. happiness to me is...
1) 2 free icemilktea
2) one year supply of icemilktea
3) getting someone to lose his/her name
4) playing pool for damn long and not having to pay for it
5) knowing how crazily lucky you are

damn, im so superficial haha. one thing learnt today: miracles do happen (:

let's see, latest updates.

1) i'm gonna go for surgery mid nov. yeah, actually it's not confirmed yet. kinda apprehensive, plus i've gotta give up alot of stuffs. having the op means 6 wks on sling and 6mths missing in action. means i'm gonna have huge trouble trynna get into a cca in jc. yikes. so maybe i'll not go for it afterall? or maybe postpone it till after a lvls or sth. cos the doc said that it's 80-90% chance of getting a dislocation again. and if i go for op, it'll reduce to what. 10%? so yeah, now's not exactly a very good time to go for op. unless, of course, i join some club cca in jc lah? man, this is the time i need a cca like POOL ):

2) i'm gonna get braces! at least i think i am? my teeth's considerable straight, but but not straight enough! haha, so braces for me for the bottom row yeah. will have it on abt a year or so. went to the dentist today. first time in 4years! ever since i left nyps, cos nyps's got our own dentist. i remember the dentist said she could send my teeth in for competition. haahaha then she gave me m&ms after that, for taking good care of my teeth (haha golly, M&Ms! what was she thinking of man!) haha i know all of you probably will go EWWWWW but, WHATEVER! my teeth are still good okay. or so says the doc. pearly whites! haha. i like going the dentist! he made me take this x-ray of my teeth and i could see all my teeth! like cute little, um, mushrooms! cool aight! ahh, my wisdom tooth's gonna get extracted. i shall blame them if i should flunk any tests next time. cos they're the teeth that makes you smart. haha the smart ones.

3) i wanna go dye my hair!

4) i wanna get another piercing. okay maybe not, cos im a scaredy cat.

i dont know why im so excited abt these kinda stuffs. im warped. haha, what a great way to welcome the following year. (cue for snorts. sense the sarcasm!)

i love watching extreme makeover. and fear factor. and the oc (SEASON THREE'S OUTTTT!). and one tree hill. i'll marry the tv one day.

went to explore california fitness centre with resh and deb today. eh, you know the 6 weeks 20bucks crap? there's like one huge rope attached. you've gotta get like a personal trainer, which amounts to 72bucks per session. and they need you to sign up for 12 sessions. so 12 times 72 plus 20 bucks for 6 weeks. go do your math =\ remind me why i hate adverts again. grr.

anyway, gillian sucks. she won me 5-3, so i hadta treat her to yammi shake or whatever that drink's called. ):

i finished one tree hill season 1 and 2! omg, so sad! i cried again, for the last ep of season 2!

people always leave
sometimes, they come back

the oc season 3 starts today! yahoo! -punches the air.

oh, guess who i saw on the bus today! ms kan! haha, my sec2 geog tchr. keep bumping into her nowadays x) so we chatted all the way to orchard. well, quite cool mmhm.

i was going through pictures in my com again... and -grabs tissue

"There are two tragedies in life, one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it" - George Bernard Shaw

bowl bowl bowl your balls, gently down the lane

woke up EARLY and did some FIVE min survey in sch today. seriously, whoever came up with this survey thing, should have known better man. i mean, firstly, it's the hols. secondly, he/she could just make use of technology slash internet slash inet slash computer and let us complete it at home? bummer. okay, so we finished at 10plus and hadta find things to do till 4 cos that's penguin dinnertime! was considering whether to sell the tickets or not, cos singapore's seriously running outta things for kids like us to do. gah. in the end we ended up eating yakun at far east. i love their eggs! but wtf, i dont know what's wrong with old people. so irritable =\ and they're irritants to me when they're super NAGGY and PICKY. -grumbles.

anyway, we went to marina square to bowl after that. sucks lah that place. lousy lanes, lousy balls? and lousy me playing haha. but had fun (: being around friends' always fun. pool-ed with mish after bowling. lousy cues, lousy balls, lousy table. hahaha, im blaming everything else but myself for the bad games i had today i dont care (: mish and i had speed pool, means you've gotta aim and hit the ball in 10secs. haha, was damn fun, cos we hadta run arnd the table? and go "oh oh! my turn! one thousand, two thousand, three thousand..." we self entertain man. i ate alot of food today. alot as in really ALOT. trust me on that. cos im gonna go all out for this eating diet to gain weight! and muscle mass too!

anyway, penguin sucked! the penguins were friggin horny pls! the mating dance or whatever was hahhahahahaha! and i saw he-penguin humping! all well, nature at work huh. little furry balls running around the place and when the eagle/bird comes around... the whole cinema started squealing. i was sleeping, till the squeals and countless "AHHHHHHH" woke me up. and there i saw resh, slapping me and going "ahh go away! run run run! ahhhhAhaHAHAHHHHHHHHHH" stupid penguins. im not an animal lover, im a baby lover (: im gonna open a childcare centre with hannah nxt time and we can take care of all your kids! i promise we'll do a TERRIFIC job! ahh whatever. im in a crap mood today.

let me test you guys, how dya prounounce 1) magenta 2) hermes? HOHOHO

[edit] came back from orchard, went for a little run to sweat it out. yeah, then when i was back from the run, i decided to pick up the basketball and try playing once more. hmm, havent touched the ball, ever since last tchrs day? yeah, and with all the shoulder injuries etc, i was just afraid to injure myself again. good thing nothing happened today (: some people ask me why it's so easy to leave netball, i mean, like totally shut it outta my life. maybe the answer is, i never really liked the game? as much as bball for sure. it wasnt meant to be, me joining bball and stuff. some choices, some circumstances and here i stand, figuring out what new sport to take on in jc. never really gave up bball yknow. it's quite a sad thing. the people i hang out with, dont share my passion for bball, yet the people who has passion for the sport, dont hang out with me. i've grown to like playing bball in solitude. just me, the ball and the net. nothing comes in between us. it gives me space to think about stuffs, or sometimes, not think about stuffs. just play and not think about anything else. still remember my pri 4 interclass bball game. one i'll never forget. getting champs wasnt easy man, haha, trng every other day. and we even went spe to play? when the net was too tall for us (bcos pri sch nets are lower). also rmb how cyn and i would play after sch with a bunch of guys, how we would go spe and just play and get chased off the court by the security guard cos we never book the courts. how her dad would play with us. and now... haha, i have trouble finding people to play with me. guess it's really not meant to be but the sport always will occupy that tiny spot in my heart (: dont know why i even bothered saying all these... hmm, maybe cos i havent been attending trng ever since season ended. was searching for a reason why, and when i picked up the bball tdy, i kinda got my answers. it's not that im lazy, it's just that im not in to it anymore. and it hurts seeing and trying for something that you know will never turn out good. the game brought back some bad and hurtful memories as well i guess. of course i had some pretty good time with it, but the bad ones are more recent. it lingers. and i guess it wont stop unless i, stop it? whatever.[/edit]

Yesterday was a great start to my sept hols haha. Mom had this juggling (dont rub your eyes, you saw it right, JUGGLING) workshop thing going on at the hotel, it's kinda also her sec sch reunion party. it's called circus outreach and so these people teach you howta juggle, you buy their juggling balls so that the funds can be used to help teenage exconvicts further their studies. everyone deserves a second chance (:

Dragged khaw, von and glor along with me. Glad they came haha, i had fun. and all the photo-whoring as well. okay not a very nice word, but you get what i mean (; was at the gym doing my pathetic workout then gloria came.went back to the room yah bathed and stuff. then von and khaw arrived. haha so we headed down to the function room and started on our workshop. pretty coool stuffs going on in there, well at least i can juggle now! von was da bomb. khaw and i totally cannot make it? hah. anyway, had dinner then headed to the lounge to play pool.

that's where the fun started! GLORIA ONG YOU DIDNT THRASH ME! -stickstongueout HAHHAAHA i was prepared to bury my head in the ground if you thrashed me! yah, then the youths had our fun.. taking turns to play pool. pool's a social game, it entertains people a whole lot and it's definitely great way to make friends (: hell yeah.

hokay. stayed over at the hotel, and i woke up at like, noon. had a great night's rest. it's been a long time since i had a good sleep like that. :D but my eyebags are permanent! it wouldnt go away, no matter how much i sleep or not sleep. gah ):

this is when life begins gotta figure out when my gymming sessions and hiphop sessions will start. haha

back to my one tree hill (:

escapade

food and fun

juggle, so they wont have to struggle

i can't take it. i think one tree hill's like 23492348243times better than OC! it has
1) basketball
2) TWISTS (damn whole lot) and now i like dan scott.
3) touching scences -tearjerkers!

no kidding. haha i dont care if i sound like an advert.. but everyone pls go watch!? the last two eps made me cry like crap. so sad! ): thank goodness i've got season2 alr, if not i'll be fretting for the rest of the sept hols. ((:

james laffery! <3

Yippe aye aye! -flounces about
-turns into a big green/ugly/polkadotty monstor and starts shredding papers.

EXAMS ARE OVER! no way! yes way! it is it is it is! (:

HAHAHAHAHA. One Tree Hill, here I come! James Laffery WOO.
Yes, so after school, jan and i met up to pool. stupid monster wasnt open lah pls! so i walked ALL THE WAY to cine (and had my pinafore drenched) to play at kpool. twas fun. i miss pooling so damn much :D good games! yupp. after that, trotted over to taka to do some shopping. met glor and co at surfbabes. then we started on our shopping spree. and now im guilty ): but nvm. i still l-o-v-e the zara top. too bad the oriental-y top had weird cutting that made my shoulders look as if they were bounded like.... dumplings! haha yeah. anyways, tdy's cool (; tmr's even better.

damn. i couldnt get a proper tanning suit. maybe i shld just give up and tan in a diver's suit lah. -roar

this song is specially dedicated to eoys:
When it's over
That's the time I fall in love again
And when it's over
That's the time you're in my heart again
And when you go go go go
I know
And it never ends
IT NEVER ENDS. x)