I missed tuition in the morning today. Was pouring like crap anyway, and I doubt we will be doing anything new, since he wont teach anything the teacher in school has not. Lazy bum. All he wants to do is to supplement. Received all the relevant worksheets alr last week, so this week I thought that even if I were to go tuition, I'd be doing the worksheets he gave last week.

Today's week 5 so Chinese tuition was off too. Which leaves me with Piano. I don't understand why my mom keeps harping on the fact that I have to learn piano. My hatred for this musical instrument has accumulated over the years, and by now, it's probably 6 feet deep (I don't know how deep that is, but you get the idea haha). Well, I'm not exactly the type of person you would call "musically-inclined", neither would I call myself "artistically inclined". I'm the sports type y'know. Give me a ball and I can occupy myself whole day long. But see, mom thinks that that's not what a girl should be doing... Exposure to sun, going all out and getting injured, or even wearing fbts around the place is unfit for a girl.

Sucks being the only girl in the family I tell ya. Actually, I have 2 female cousins (my mom's side) but I don't really see them, so rarely do I meet them that I can barely remember their names=\. So I guess you can count them out, and there you go, ONLY girl, with no girl cousins whatsoever. My family isn't exactly A Chinese Traditional Family per say but it's conservative enough comparatively. Though I still have a trying-really-hard-to-be-hip Dad. :D

Mom asked me to cook rice for dinner today. I was like, "how the hell do you do that?!" But it's not my fault for not being able to "cook rice". I loved cooking, when I was young what is. But mom forbade me to do so. She calls it a waste of time, and I should channel that energy to books- assessment books, non-fiction, storybooks, or anything that's academically-inclined.

I have decided. Well actually I've decided on this since I was fourteen, but I didnt really have the means/guts to crystalise it. My decision is to, be happy. I could go all philosophical on those two words, but I shall spare everyone on that, hehe. Be happy, not too much to ask for, right? Afterall, we only live once (: (albeit, we all live to die) In any case, me being happy means balancing my grades, together with my CCA and of course, my interests (of which I will spend some time thinking what I would take up after my papers).

Kickboxing probably, or pool. Something that my physical state right now can endure.

My life really sucks, cos it's pretty much circling round netball only. Now, when the passion fades away (due to cumulative reasons), I'm left with nothing, no options. I guess I could do something about my smouldering flame for the sport, but I won't. Don't ask me why, but I thought I should see the end of it now. Afterall, if the old wont go, the new wont come right? (:

be the best

I've got to keep my options open. Make things easier for myself (although more options means more dilemma, but after all these years I guess I've grown accustommed to it already). Only I know what's best for me, not my friends not my parents. I will decide on what to do and why from now on, so yay for me (:

Being sixteen entitles me to writing the above, I hope.